You have big plans for the day. It’s all mapped out perfectly in your head. Fun activities for the kids, cute outfits to put them in, sweet little attitudes… it’s going to be great. But apparently the kids have their own plans….
It starts with a newborn constantly crying and needing to be held. Unhappy with a tummy ache and CANNOT be put down.
Then a poopy toddler diaper blow out. Change of outfit.
Then another blow out. Change of outfit.
Then the dog gets out of the kitchen because the toddler forgot to close the gate again.
Then the dog pees due to the excitement of escaping her designated area.
Then the toddler ransacks the pantry and brings me a bag of bagels while I’m cleaning up after the dog.
Then the toddler messes up her hairdo while I’m cleaning up the pantry
Then the newborn has a poopy blowout. Change outfit.
Just when the toddler starts to whine because I won’t allow her to play with a full bottle of water with no cap on, I lose a bit of control, raise my voice, and un-lovingly reprimand and scold my toddler.
Then I see the unsureness in my toddlers eyes. She’s looking at me cautiously because she doesn’t normally hear me like this and realizes I have lost a bit of control. How she studies me while this is happening is like ice water being dowsed on me and I’m instantly convicted. My poor little girl.
So many times I read stuff on the internet where moms want to feel like they aren’t alone in scenarios like the one I just described. I know I’m not alone. I know it will probably happen again. I don’t want to seek comfort that other people are going through it too, because I already know they are. I want to focus on how I should be constantly trying to keep control. To push through the frustration and teach my children to keep their calm and not lose it like mommy did. I also need to drop my pride and ask them for forgiveness when I do lose control. Yes, they are little sinners, but they learn a lot from me and I don’t want to fail them by giving into my own sinful nature.